One word to sum it up
One word to describe torture
The hurt, pain, emptiness
I can describe only as hell.

Everything exposed, open
My world ripped apart
My insides taken away
A blank, empty hole left.

Raped not once, but twice
Victimised over and over
Weakened by power
Anything left of me, gone.

All of me taken away
My smile drowned out
Any happiness saddened
An overwhelming sense of nothing.

Feeling so small, weak
Hurting through and through
Wanting to hide, escape
Wanting it all to stop.

A room full of strangers
Staring at me on my own
Alone made to suffer
Alone left to fight.

Challenged to pieces
Broken up bit by bit
Pulled back and forth
Left shattered, crushed.

No-one caring, only judging
A raped liar, a liar
Not believed, not trusted
A guilty, bad person.

Put through total hell
Raped by a bastard
Raped by a court
In front of him.

Put through rape
Then told to talk
Forced to talk through it
How a man raped me.

Forced to sit in front of him
Describe what hell he put me through
What he did to me
For what?

Now he gets away with it
No-one could decide
So he walks away
Unless I do it all over again.

Hell, one word, hell
I can’t do this again
Where am I in this?
I’ve gone. I’m lost now.

Somewhere I have to get myself back
Right now I’m dead inside
I’ve taken as much as I’m willing to take
I want my life back now.